~ Linda Harrington, RNC
Fear and anxiety are my constant companions.
I am often on the brink of tears: my feelings of inadequacy are
overwhelming at times.
I am positive that I learned nothing in nursing school.
I am filled with doubt.
The nurses around me are moving to music I cannot hear.
Gracefully and efficiently they complete their tasks
I watch this ballet of competency fearing I will never learn to dance.
For now, I will mimic the steps as best I can.
A metamorphosis occurs.
Experience dispels the uncertainty I once felt.
I realize it was not expected that I feel comfortable.
A novice never does.
Mentors emerge; acting as choreographers, they demonstrate the
Intricacies of the dance.
They insist on perfection and practice.
They move aside when they are sure I’ve learned the steps.